i'll never find anyone. fact. it's too late now.

Hi Sizzle. If you could wrestle any celebrity who would it be n y?

heard nothing from her since 10am when she message me back saying that it was nice to meet me.

oh that's fkuced me up. i want to see her. i want to fkcin see her.

im not going to call. i sent maybe 3 short messages. just fkn leave it at that and wait.

because the alternative is a voice message saying i want to fkin see you do you understand?. and it would not sound.....mmmm....like.... all that . i don't think.

actually the alternative is to just be perfectly calm. like a.....mmmmmm..... like a.....like the sea when there's no breeze. just flat. mmmmm.

it's fine actually. because i don't even want to see her anyway. she had nothing that i desire. from the moment i saw her...until there was nothing there at all that i could want in any way, or that could give me any sort of complete and utter blissful joy.

so if we all just take a deeeep breath for a few seconds.

in

out

in your own time it's fine, can do yourself like that.

ffs, banned from the arsenal thread for saying i don't like arsenal.

Anyone about?

this is another great track from The Black Keys

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6yCIDkFI7ew

to kiss her leg like that and then fkin leave her there

She HAS messaged me

An i did kind of think earlier that if she sends me ANY message, then she's interested.

She laughed at my recollection of her friend (who waa with us for a bit before the moto lady took her back and left the 2 of us there) being drunk, and says she dies remember the foot massage (with a couple of lols thrown in).

Im thinking of wriing:

Hi

Nice to hear from.you. i noticed your lols which suggests to me that you are slightly interested or at least curious, but that you want to keep things cool and light hearted after last night's emotional torrent.

I might as well level with you, ive kind of gone the other way. I do want to see you, but i am frankly in complete fkucing bits out of my desire for you,and dont think i could even actually meet you right now as a result.

Let.me know if youre still interested.

told her in a 'lighthearted' way about how i remember being jealous of the moto lady for not sharing her and taking all the hugs. and asked her how her day's been.

think im calming down a little bit. but.....id be AMAZED if I pull this off now tbh. all i can do is just keep fkin quiet and wait for her to do some talking. and if she is inerested, hope that noone else takes her while im waiting.

"I want to see you" can't do any harm can it?

Can I tell her that my face is my worst feature, or is that presumptuous?

she says she takes people as she finds them. i think that means she agrees that im an ugly cnta, but that's fair enough.

ive told her that ive thought about her a normal amount of time today.

she says hahahahahaha that's good to know

which to me looks fairly positive.

is anyone here today??? hello??