What do I say when the inside is sinking with emotion weighing words down.
Can you watch a tennis match backwards?
Well, that's how it feels for me right now: I have actually seen a match backwards.
For, the end of yesterday's final provided the key to unlock the beginning:
the bright sunshine, the glorious Centre Court, the "important" people looking fragile: wanting something so badly, yet not being able to buy it.
The young man who his box was terribly concerned about: you could see it on their weary faces, like never before, even his normally tough fist-pumping fitness trainer was reduced to his 5 year old helplessness.
The mum was overwhelmed, too. The one who hugged him from day one, needed a hug she could not get.
But the young man was brave for them all, he was brave and was not going to be denied.
And he wasn't denied.
He left absolutely everything he had on that court. Even the stuff he borrowed for the day: the fearlessness, the smile, the buried fear, the cast-off old comfort blanket.
He was light.
And then he had to pack it all up in his heart and go back to those same walls he has to look at every day.
His hands will have been shaky, he may have left a piece or two behind.
It doesn't matter now.
Nothing matters now.
Nothing will matter for a very long time.
Walk tall in those dark woods, Andy and come back when you're ready.
The sun always comes after the clouds.
It's got to.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eb4VY8gYZt4
Proof I AM a Fan!
posted on 9/7/12
nitb
Yeah, andy was not the only one crying yesterday. Beautiful post and great timing as well
Someone on my facebook asked me as why Andy was crying? I have not replied to him yet but will do this evening.
posted on 9/7/12
I am still quite upset.
Didn't expect it at all.
posted on 9/7/12
Yes, great post NITB! I take my words (those not on these forums) back now after having watched that final and the presentation. They were badly timed but since I did not get the emotion of it all at the time, I guess I can be forgiven.
I am really looking forwards to this summer tennis now.
posted on 9/7/12
Of course you can
posted on 9/7/12
loooosing in front of your home town
the crowd call your name
they love you all the same
and wiiiiilllll time paaaassss
posted on 9/7/12
PM!
long time no see, how was your Wimbledon?
posted on 9/7/12
Bad sweetheart, very!
Sabine didn't even bother answering to my numerous txt messages....
Went for a drink at the terrace with Mash and she looked down on me all along as if I was a ballboy and was chilly cold.
In the and I met this blond Essex starlett and took her to a pub, and I don't mean the ground floor.....
How about yourself? A bird told me you met someone special in there, how was your meeting, only gossip please......
posted on 9/7/12
it was so special I can't utter a word. keeping it all for myself.